October 3, 2018


I’ve been pretty silent these past few months. Enjoying life as a family of five. My creative career has  been blossoming in this new area as I watch Lloyd forge real friendships at school, Walter toddles around the house and Mabel points at anything and everything sh...

July 24, 2018

Despite assurances from all our doctors that Dan and I clearly cannot conceive naturally, we decided to err of the side of caution and shut that shit down.

Dan had an attempted vasectomy earlier last month. What’s the difference between an actual vasectomy and an attemp...

May 14, 2018

My 3-year-old has been asking lots of questions regarding his creation.

In some ways, the scientific answer may be easier to give than if we had made him the good old-fashioned way. We've always been open and honest with Lloyd. We call body parts by their real names. We...

May 9, 2018

Tomorrow I turn 39 and it occurred to me that I have spent all of my thirties trying to procreate, and not in the fun way. 

We tried the expensive, emotionally exhausting way. Obviously, as you can see, we succeeded. YAY! What you can’t see are battle wounds, the failed...

March 15, 2018

It's been one week since Walter's surgery. Every day is better than the last. He still has a lot of pain when he lays down and diaper changes are the worst. He's waking up three to four times a night, screaming, but that's to be expected. He really is taking this whole...

March 8, 2018

The last 27 hours have been the longest of my life. Specifically the four hundred and five minutes that Walter was in the OR. It's a specific kind of torture that I wouldn't wish on anyone. You have nothing but a large tv with a long list of numbers. Each child has a n...

March 2, 2018

I've been away from the blog for a bit, and I didn't realize it until I started receiving tons of thoughtful messages regarding Walter's upcoming surgery. 

The thing is, blogging about it means it's real. That this thing I'm dreading is actually happening.  Happening in...

February 7, 2018

Today was supposed to be Walter's surgery date. The thing we've been waiting and planning for since his birth.  This looming surgery that had already been postponed once due to doctors’ schedules. This 6-8 hour surgery where they cut Walter from ear to ear and reconstr...

January 29, 2018

Spoiler alert 

It seems that at least once a decade, I somehow manage to end up on a reality TV show. It's not planned. In fact, this most recent appearance happened when I was at my lowest point. I was the heaviest I'd ever been. We had just come off two failed rounds...

January 25, 2018

Walter’s surgery is fast approaching. In less than three weeks, they will cut him from ear to ear and begin chipping away at the front of his skull to correct his Metopic Craniosynostosis. This little boy who is always happy and loves to cuddle. When he's tired or hung...

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